You're rubbing salt in my wounds

I thought it was bad before I met you
But this is something I didn't foresee
I've committed a deadly sin
By thinking you cared for me

My error, my mistake
I perceived you had a heart
Little did I know my fault
Would tear my life apart

Everything is lost
And my life is close to gone
Too late for me to know
You were the devil's spawn

I can't believe I was so foolish
Can't believe I was so dumb
You're rubbing salt in my wounds
And yet my body still feels numb

I've Had Enough Now

I can not sleep again,
My eyes constantly weep,
I keep falling into myself,
I am afraid of getting in too deep.

I am slipping in the edge,
Strongly ready to fall,
Just to let go,
And turn my back on it all.

I am drowning in bad memories,
So sick of crying inside,
I have just had enough now,
My corner is eroding away where I hide.

My body is dying slowly,
Wasting all away,
I am slipping further,
With each passing day.

Burning out like a flame,
Into a dark solitary place,
Losing my undignified fight,
As my tears fall down my face.

I lie back,
And suddenly I can not breathe,
All I want in life,
Is to quickly leave.

Because I can not stand this,
Can not cope with this anymore,
My heart is badly broken,
Scattered across the floor.

Beyond being fixed,
Pieces can never be but back together,
It is too late, I can not be helped,
This is me forever.

I would rather walk away from here,
I want to be dead,
I wish I was never born,
And to the happy place I wish I could be lead.

So I am gonna let go now,
And finally say good bye,
Because I have finally had enough,
And I no longer wanna cry.

Have you ever been in love?

Horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.

They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts.

Not just in the imagination.

Not just in the mind.

It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love.

Confused

How should one react when used like a toilet paper. Something one remembers when in need and after its over just dump it.
Dont know whether they really need you or use you just because you are there. People change and make a mockery of your self respect.
People show sympathy but then do things that had caused the pain in the first place.
But then people also change..people who profess to stand by you.

Confused is what I am....Really!!!!

life sucks

caress the free aspects of the mindhold on to those you love,
for they will not exist forever
forget the faults of the world
for they will forget you
I love to be loved
but i hate to exist
Time will cease
and others will forget who they are
and what they have done to those around them
It will hurt and it can only be endured by a certain amount of time...
before someone will break and die inside
These things don't really exist, but can be seen by those being abused
This pain is not a loving world
This pain has to be endured and fought till the end of time
Only you can make a difference in how you feel

7 Days to go !!!!

Beautiful In My Eyes

You're my peace of mind
In this crazy world
You're everything I've tried to find
Your love is a pearl
You're my Mona Lisa
You're my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize...
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We'll have our fill of tears
Our share of sighs
My only prayer is that you realize...
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

You will always beBeautiful in my eyes
And the passing years will show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

And there are lines upon my face
From a lifetime of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last while
We can laugh about
How time really flies
We won't say good-bye
Cause' true love never dies...
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so
Maybe my love will come back some day
Heaven Knows

Creature of Social Habit

For a creature of such social habit
I must be the loneliest soul in the Universe
The sheer thickness of my address book
Should be indicative of my alleged loveability

Truthfully, I’ve collected many along the way
-either by choice or design –
but not many have stopped by to collect me.

I’ve always hidden away from view
Always surrounded myself with as many faces as I can
So as to be unnoticed untouched
But utterly unclean.

There are many shiny stars on my life’s sky
But there is no moon at night
And no sun to beat down and give light.

Just many miscellaneous faces and twinkles
For me to throw myself up against
In the very vain hope that some glitterdust
Will rub off and shine from me

And now the only light in this dark room
Is the end of my umpteenth cigarette
As it glows and fade
Glows and fades
Glows and fades
But never quite shines.